Future and how clueless I actually am.

Ok so I pretty much expected that I knew what my future held and all that. That I would know where I was going to college. Yes my goal is to go to Califonia Baptist University but, hey I might get everything done but, then not get accepted and have to pick a diffierent college. So I learned that I really have no clue what is at the end of this last year and half a highschool. God is the only one that knows anything, yes I can plan all I want but at the end I'm completely clueless. I dont even know whats going to happen in the next five minutes, I may be dead. It shows how the future is really the future.

Feeling joy through pain.

How can you be happy when your in pain? Having the joy knowing your dying? One of my elementary school teachers, has cancer and she has been told she doesn't have long to live. Her whole attitude towards it is AMAZING! I have to say she is one of my hero's. I don't know how I would respond I'm thankful that God hasn't put me exactly in that position. For the teacher if you guys could lift her in pray that these last few months won't be as painful as it could be and that she will feel comfortable.

Yesterday at church, I asked myself how much pain, I could handle, at the end I am a wimp, plain and simple. I dont do well with pain or when I feel awkward. So thats something that I have to work on so that I'm not a coward.

Cold and wet

As I looked out the window I was grumbling about how wet and cold it was outside. Then I realized how lucky we are to have rain, or have water in our homes. There are plenty of countries that have no water so they have to walk to the rivers and lakes, creeks. we should be thankful that we are very spoiled. Thankful that it does rain, that the rain brings water to the mountains our drinking water.